new joy :)

I feel new after a really long time.The only thing i had to do was give myself a chance to feel it.

Its interesting and i dont know how real it is.But what i do know is that it makes me smile once more for reasons that are incomprehensible :)

My Analogy

I am a warrior.

I always wanted to be one.Today when i can be by myself without anticipating a phonecall or knowing how you would react when im in the dumps,i knnow i have won an age old battle that i was tryin to fight.

I always wanted to know failure and feel stressed that every nerve of my body has been strained and then have nothing to regret.

I had heard it was tough but what i did not expect was the maturity that is accompanied when you have to be a bigger person and  succumb to defeat.

I have been valiant,i have defined resilience and demonstrated integrity...truly....

I am a warrior,i believed in myself but what i learnt today is that there are no timlines to success and victory,you just need to believe in your intention.

My analogy is way beyond and much longer but not right now,I'm listening to fun stuff all around me and i'm distracted :p

Defeat and Accepting it...

I dont have anything to regret.Thats why i'm not sulking.
Great for you if it was your day but i know i did everything i could.

I used to say that earlier but now i know that if you really have done whatever you could there will be nothing to feel bad for and then you just trust nature with its decision.I do and i succumb to your victory.
Whatever it is that you did i want you to know that thid LC matters more to me and if ur the chosen one then so be it.
I want you to know that i will be there for you.I hate you coz you never let me see who you are, you never had a conversation with me and you were just so unreal...at least thats what i thought.
But today i surrender not because i have to but because i want to see you- as an elected leader and i want to stand with you through your vision.
I believe this is the only way i could have possibly grown closer to you and i am oblivious from now on about the things i thought about you.
I expect you to trust me when i confess all this to you and i want you to be honest in every intention of yours.
Prove me wrong by being the person who this LC sees as the future and someone who can live upto his words.
Im happy for you and i wish you every success.This is my true confession and i have once again, only been honest.

I am a defeated LCP Applicant and this is what i feel this moment after my dream came crashing down.

AIESECly Yours
Tusheeta Singh
AIESEC Pune

(two days post elections)

God...to YOU and ME!!!

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's no thing enlightened about shrinking so
that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other
people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.'

Because i still believe in you :)

When i see each one of you, when i address you, i feel like family, i feel like we are all addressing the same issue and i know you realise it.I know you want to have a good time and you relate to what i am saying, but i also know that its either the heirarchy or the hesitance that makes you not want to bring it up or you have probably just given up but im asking you not to.Im asking you to go deep inside of you and feel the passion which each one of us did at one point.I know it seems miserable and disappointing but i know that you want to make a difference and you are the only ones who can.

I see you and i see the underlying cause of being together in this swirl and im asking you to believe in yourself and in the power of righteous deeds, in the joy of being together, in the satisfaction of doing something important for yourself and mostly in the learning that you have had.

I believe in you, i wish to stand with you and to tell you that you can really make a difference and its high time that you do..for yourself and for the potential that lies in you:)  

Contentment.........truly!!!

Im happy and content,every new day is eventful and exciting and things seem to be going my way maybe coz i just chose to take it that way......

Nothing is as hard as it looks, things and circumstances are more rewarding than they seem.

If anything has to be right, it will.... and at the best possible time.

Our biggest fear is not that we are weak, but that we're far more powerful than we assume ourselves to be.That is the irony of life.

The moment i believed in it, everything happened just as i wanted it to..thats my little secret and i cant feel better than i do, each day of my (new) life.

I accept myself,i listen to everything, adhere to what appeals to me, dance in front of the mirror madly, most importantly, i enjoy every emotion i feel and allow myself to be consumed by the ones that are remotely associated to happiness, joy and their likes :):)

its about you all the time.....!!

You have defeated me...by the resilience and beauty of your soul.I cannot explain to you how i feel to have known you, though what we share is ordinary and uninteresting,i cannot begin to tell you what you mean to me though we have nothing in common, we never did........

I am in awe of how you are so aware of yourself,of how you are sure and unsure at the same time,of your simplicity which is much more than subtle complexity...,its wonderful to know you are living in another world,happy with you everyday life and content with who you are.

I dont love you coz what i feel is beyond comprehension,beyond what i knew could exist, you're someone i never met before,and im assured that i cannot replace your presence and importance in my life.

You accept me with your judgements, you mean a lot to so many people who secretly admire you......i just admitted i do too.

But admiration,praise,affection,warmth,etc are smaller words in their content, what you are to me is beyond.....its bigger than anything else i know and i cant imagine what i would be without your intellect, your laughter,your thoughts,your actions and everything that you are which i fail to pen down...so i dont try too hard now.

Be there,be the same,know me as another person you know but i know its beyond....much more than we both could ever know.